debo08080

still here

2008-06-25T05:28:32Z

I posted the other day. however, i did something special, its private, just for me. only cause i dont want a couple people in my life reading it.

I just wanted to update since I haven't in awhile.

I graduated, school's over, drexel in middle of september, till then work, fun, relaxing. I got offered a job today. Its a sales job with vector marketing. should be good experience, and very flexible, which is always nice.

My mood is the same as my update before, for the same reasons.

February 14, 2008 6:48pm....it all started

2008-02-17T23:14:21Z

I can't stop playing it over in my head. Over and over and over and over. It keeps me up at night, it wakes me up when i finally get to sleep. I can't stop thinking...what if my sister wasn't ok? what if that little girl in the back seat of the other car died? how would I feel? it wasn't my fault, I know, but still. Would my sister have been better off in the front seat? my mom tells me no, but I know she's lying to make me feel better. What if cristina was in the car too?

Car accidents. They are a scary thing. It happened so fast. I hardly realized I was in one till I was breathing in smoke from the airbags, in pain in various areas of my body, and hearing the screaming and crying of my sister. I opened my eyes, thats when I realized that i had just tore over a traffic light. It was on the ground. I couldn't stop the car. The breaks hardly seemed to work. I turned off the key. My first instinct was to get out of a smoky car in case something happened. Got sam out...called parents. I was so angry at myself for getting in an accident, even if it wasn't my fault, which it wasn't. They put my sister on a stretcher, I didn't want one.

It happened so damn fast. I hardly remember it yet its burned into my memory. I still wonder if that girl from the other car is ok. I can't imagine how her parents feel that it was their fault their daughter was on her way to cooper. I wonder if they even realize it's their fault. If not, they'll realize it when the police report comes.

For anyone who's never been in one, I don't recommend getting in an accident. Scariest thing ever. Seriously.

The EMT's were very nice. Took us to kennedy. I left a couple hours later with a prescription for heavy dose ibuprofen and some muscle relaxer. I cried that night. First time in a long time. My sister was going to spend the night. The next day I found out they transfered her to Children's Hospital in Philly. I felt responsible for putting her in the hospital. I wished it was me spending the night there, not her. Luckily I found out later she was fine too.

I say I want to write more,

2007-06-28T03:44:06Z

and i do, but i dont know how some people do it. seriously, not that much can happen that you need to write in it every couple days.but i never finished my entry last night, and thats 2 in a row. Off topic, but I LOVE THUNDER AND LIGHTNINGI honestly cant remember the first one, and the second, i think i choose not to finish, simply because i'll bottle my feelings down again, which i know is dumb, but in the words of a couple people i know(all girls obviously) and I quote, "Hey you are a 17 year old guy, you are supposed to be dumb". I disagree, but whatever. If girls werent so damn confusing it'd make it a lot easier for us guys. on a scale from 1-10 girls are like a bajillion, on how easy it is to understand them. guys however, are at -1 bajillion on the same scale. Not that I want a girl who is like that haha. that'd be....weird to put it midly. I think i'll write in one fat paragraph, just to piss anyone off who still may be reading this. haha could that be a deterent? possibly. haha chances are no one is reading this, either because they dont care about my issues/problems/thoughts, or people just dont want to read something with so many grammatical errors it makes their head bleed. This of course, is not hte latter because I culd b taulkin lik this,fi i wantd ta. But for realz, sometimes i do things just to see the reaction ill get out of people. Tapping in class is a big one, jus tto see how long it takes someone to tell me to stop. Like here, for any of yo ustill reading, i'm doing this one long paragraph just to see if anyone says anything about it, although no one will now because i just told you why. So much for that idea, huh? why is peruvian cocaine so good? haha no i dont do drugs either, but its awesome. I was in cherry hill today from 9-4, it took forever to get there ethough because of stupid rush hour. For anyone who didnt know, I was talking about the song btw. I need a car though because I was waiting forever for my bro to pick me up. yes my brother, not a friend, i'm not gay i dont call my friends bro. haha. i was up there for orientation though. it was a pain in the ass, they talked about the usual stuff, benefits, sexual harassment, stuff like that. the only benny i'm interested in was the 401k ( with up to 4.5% company match) I dont think I'll contribute to it though, because i think instead i'll open a roth IRA. For those of you who work, but dont know about this,and are my age give or take, and want to start saving for your future. here is my advice, open a roth IRA. All contributions are taxed going in(as opposed to regular IRA's which are taxed coming out, or 401k's which are just tax deffered) since we are all exempt(you probably claimed exempt on line 7 of your W-4 form) and even if you didnt, you are under the poverty line probably. Therefore, you get all your taxes back that would be taken out. in a roth earnings arent taxed either. I suggest all of you put as much as possible in a roth this year, and the upcoming years. this years max is $4,000 in any IRA, as well as $15,500 in 401k's. Anyway, as said by britt, "yes adam there is"[something wrong with you], b/c i started talking about oriennnntation and then wnet to financial advice, and i didnt mean for all of those n's to happen, but i wanst payint attention. This entry probably looks like jibberish, not that the rest dont, i just refuse to fucking fix them. why? i have no clue, itd be a tone faster, yea i meant a ton, as in 2000 pounds, but whatever. I get in these sad moods lately. a lot. and i have nothing to b e sad about. whats wrong wtih me, any of you who are still reading, which i bet is zero people total, tell me whats wrong with me, please. I need some how to fix it. life is too short to be sad all the time. Why the FUCK insnt myspace working? i keep getting this sorry theres and error or some bullshit. stupid myspace. i have work tomorrow 12-6 and firday 12-5. i dunno what i'm doing either night, hopefully something fun. Or something with her, i doubt the latter though. unless i grow a pair and actually ask her. haha i'm so gay. myspace is working agian. the 2 things that scare adam debes? Dying and rejection.

So much for writing every month [minimum] right?

2007-06-27T04:26:35Z

haha almost 2 months again. Who cares. Life has been pretty good to me recently. School is out, so that is cool. I'm just chilling pretty much. I started work yesterday? yea yesterday. I trained, it was just a lot of reading and test taking. tomorrow orientation in stupid cherry hill. it'll take an hour to get there b/c i have to go in rush hour. Fuck you cherry hill. thursday more training, and prolly some of friday, hopefully i'll actually start working friday. should be easy. more than half of the time, they [the girls] are just in there talking and shooting the shit. Should be interesting working with all girls, except Jay, who isnt around much, he's out visiting customers, and other branches, and what not. He seems like a good guy. I have a feeling there will be a little too much estrogen for me though.

I got new next door neighbors, Jason and Sandy. They are both awesome, they are in their mid 20s? ish and they are chill as hell. They are what I want to be like too. They already own 7-10(i forget how many) rental properties, own a nice house to live in, have great jobs, and are financially secure. Jason is left handed(like me)...which wouldnt be a big deal if he hadn't seen me chipping out back. He said [in the middle of my backswing] "A lefty eh?" and he paid me for mowing his lawn. We got to talking and he gave me a SW(sand wedge) b/c I dont have one and he just bought new clubs. That was cool of him. I hit that club nicely the next day at Valleybrook. We are gonna play together next week or something. Prolly at V-brook again. It was a nice course. I like links courses better, though i dont know of any in the area. A links course is one without trees, just high fucking grass that is hella hard to hit out of, but i play better on them then traditional style courses.

Its funny. Its been so long since I wrote, and so much has happened...and yet, i'm at a loss for words. I know [some of] what I want to write, but i fear that person reading it, which isn't normal considering some of my past entries, will know its her. she still likes him i think. I will do it though. I should do it. I wnat to do it...kind of.

i shouldnt leave another entry unfinished(like the last one) but i'm bored of writing, and I'm scared of the response I could get if she found out who it was about, and how I felt...yea i said it, I'm scared.

I'm a faggot( and so is Kulp)

2007-04-29T05:02:17Z

Why do I go months at a time without writing? I bottle everything up, and then let it go all at once. Since I started this my temper has taken a dramatic change. Anything would set me off before I started writing here. My moods were like night and day, I was always layed-back and shit, but something simple and stupid could set me off and make me pissed off. Now, I am just layed back almost all the time. I just let things go. I'm glad I started. It has made me more in control. However, with the control I now have, I have a lot more built up....anger?, no thats not the word really, thats too intense. Frustration? Closer, but still doesn't quite work. I'll get back to you on this word.

Now that I've said I can control my temper, I'll condradict myself of course! I feel like a five year old. I've thrown temper tantrums like 3 times in the past 2 months. WTF. w/e. it must be that the 3 month length was too long. One month is good I think, daily is ideal. God knows I can't/won't write daily though, so whatever.

Junior prom was eh. It was last night. It was fun I suppose, but iunno,it just didn't have that flare that I thought it'd have. It was good though, I got to chill with emily, danielle, danielle, and dean a lot, so thats cool. Mike was there too. Well...now remembering that, I didn't spend much time with emily. She was too busy shoving her tongue down Mikes throat, although, that was a two way street for them. After prom, we went to pizzaria uno, it was good. we had to eat fast though so we could still take the limo home. We went back to danielle's house. We talked for a little, then watched 10 minutes of george of the jungle...woo? we went to bed early, like 3ish. No one I hung out with there drinks, so that was basically a bust. Although, it turned out to work in my favor, because of what I did later in the day. Ill talk about that later though.

Senior prom is next weekend, and it won't be better, if it isn't worse. I'll know less people there, and I don't know my date, or really wanna go with her. I got made to go by two sources. First was that my frined's friend needed a date, so w/e. Then one of my good friends, who i've known since like we were 4, his girlfriend's friend(same girl obviously) needed a date. I don't know this girl. This is EVERYTHING I know about her, her name is Gab(dunno her last name).She is a senior. Her dress is emerald?,apparently thats green. She wants a bouquet thing of flowers, they have to be white, or ivory, and they have to have lillys? How the fuck am I supposed to know what lillys are. I don't even know if they are spelled lilly or lily, since I picked lilly, its more than likely lily. Oh well. I'm not looking forward to it AT ALL. ANYONE ELSE GOING? LET ME KNOW PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Kulp, my german teacher, is a complete dumbass. He is an awful teacher. Now, I'm not even just saying this cause I hate him either. He litterally said in class the other day that he, and I quote, "I obviously didn't teach it good enough since everyone failed," it was on some quiz. There were like 3 passing grades out of like 20some. Luckily, I'm awesome at life, so I slept through the lesson, and wasn't there(I was at temple) when we went over it again, and I got a 90 8). I'm awesome, or a good guesser. Either way, I'm fine with it. What I'm not fine with is him. He treats me differently then almost all the rest of the class. Most obvious reason is about... a week? ago. He lost control of class, as he usually does.

[b]So, apparently theres this thing called a girlfriend. [/b]

Now that I've bitched, I'll go to the nice things!

[b]So, I woke up today after prom, to Dean talking to danielle steck, and mrs. monaco. He had to leave to coach volleyball in williamstown or something.

[b]nice weather[/b]

I'm not done this yet, I just need a break. THe bolded things are the ones that aren't done yet and need to be finished, Ill finish later

its been like 2 months...

2007-01-25T01:54:46Z

since i last wrote. It feels like forever though. Everything has been good. Maybe thats why. I think i only write in here when im mad/upset/emo/feeling shitty/*insert other way to express negative emotion*/etc.

today though..............sucked. if mrs. hornibrook didnt let us work tomorrow i prolly would have gottan a 12 on the test. im not kidding either. thank god she is nice. but it doesnt help that she isnt a good teacher. she is supposed to teach bio. why is she teaching physics you may ask? so does her 3rd and 6th period class. i have a theory though, physics sucks so bad that no one majors in it except complete dumbasses... i.e. mr. wright...... so they have to take random science teachers and get them to teach physics. hopefully this continues though, becaues then eventually no one will truely understand physics and maybe it will all just go away, wishful thinking, i know.

this weekend was good news. friday my g-parents were here so i just chilled with them, played spades for like 4 hours with dad, me, sam, and grandma. me and my dad are so good its ashame. i ALMOST feel bad, but not quite. saturday i was busy all day then i had twilight that night. i went to britt's, took pictures and ish, britt looke beautiful, as always. then we went to aug's, took pics then waited another hour and a half for augs date chic. then we got on the bus, it was pretty hot, good find by me if i do say so. then to camden :p. he dropped us off like forever away but w/e. dance was good, britt doesnt dance though :(. She should but i think she is scared of what others think. she talked with alyssa most of the night. I had fun, i hope she did too. so i danced and ish, the only problem was the dj, he ended the dance on fucking shoulder lean.....who does that? what an idiot. then when it was over back on le bus, still pretty cool. we got dropped off at dions, i hardley know him but he's pretty cool. everyone stayed cept britt and lyss, dunno where they went. Some other people came over too. it was fun stuff. I need to chill with them more often. so everyone slept over there. woke up next day church, bball, i didnt play too well. 8 hours of sleep all weekend will do that, including only 2(5:30 to 7:30) hours the night before. Dion's mom is oblivious lol. she made us chocolate chip pancakes though and they were goodddddddd. haha then i just layed around all sunday. i was tired as hell. it took me till today to recover from lack of sleep.

oh saturday i coached my sisters team to victory cause dad is in mexico. won 22-15. defensive struggle you say? no, girls games are always that low :p. i'm 6-0 as a head coach. i lost my game last night.

I watched the departed today, hella good movie, go watch it NOW.

thats about it for now...i cant wait for prom.

peace.

fuckin a

2006-11-26T04:58:48Z

fucking ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh you annoy me, yet im still friends with you, you know that? well you normally dont, but this kid your FUCKING OBSESSED WITH HIM. I DONT WANT TO GO THERE. IF I WANTED TO WATCH YOU MAKE OUT WITH SOME KID I WOULD HAVE SUGGESTED IT. ughh im sorry, but if i tell you this youll be more pissed than you are at me. i really dont like the kid, im sorry, thats what it comes down to though. omg im beyond mad though. I hate doing that in the first place but i went cause iunno why. and then you were pissed at me cause i dont want to go chill with him and watch yous make out for a half hour? haha yea ok. that sounds like a good ole fuckin time. I honestly dont mind you telling me your problems but i swear for the last 2 weeks all you talk about is him. IM TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT HIM 24/7 EVERY DAY. i still want you to come to me with your problems though. oh yea, that "brainwave" i had, was that i dont like him and you were annoying tonight. and you were mad at me for no fucking reason. and that irritates me. the kid is nice to me iknow, but i dont care. i dont like weird kids like that, and i dont like smokers like his freinds. my allergies with smokers suck. my eyes fucking hurt from his stupid fucking friends smoking tonight, and it sucks. ugh. but then OMG ughh w/e im done fucking righting in this fucking thing. yea i know it should be writing not righting but i dont feell like hitting the stupid backspace key. haf;glsdfgsd;alhgk;slgajsdgh im annoyed incase you couldnt tell. if you know who you are and you are reading this, you will knwo who you are, lets talk. ok? lets talk calmly, just give me like a day or too to chill out. Im sorry. i had to vent that. and i know no one else wants an angry guy just yelling. so i will be calm enough to talk about this when everyour ready.

i hate people that are asking people to winter twilight. i have no fucking clue who to fucking ask. ideas for who to ask? go ahead and tell me on here. or aim me: debo08080.

debo08080 @ 2006-11-17T21:38:00

2006-11-18T02:38:52Z

for more than one reason, but mostly because no one read my last entry, thats ashame. normally i dont care, but this was an important one.

i'm disapointed right now...but i dont have anything to really be upset about. i dont have a bad life. hell i have a good life. im in the US, i think now matter what situation your in, you probably are well off if you live in the US. look at africa and the such. you are a king to them. w/e.

im just in like a blahhhhhhhhhhh type o mood. its kinda rediculous that people are asking others to winter twilight already, its in 2 months people. I hate these times, because I always fear not going or going alone, and its rough deciding who i want to ask. "is she too good for me?" "would she say yes?" etc etc etc. what if there is more than one person youd wanna asked? then your fucked 3 ways till sunday, or whatever that fucking saying is. FUCKIN A i just lost 27k in poker.

iunno who to ask, any ideas? let me know :P. Last years dance was interesting, the girl i went with i didnt see after 10 minutes after we got tehre, i didnt care, neither did she. it was fun. so yea.

i missed the o'reily factor tonight, not that any of you know what this is. Watch it, fox news channel(47) at 8pm everynight? every weeknight anyway, who knows. its a good show. what am i saying, hardley anyone would like it. its a conservative talk show basically.

My stock is up .37 cents today. thats good news, that means i have made about a grand overnight.

so yea this girl still basically likes her ex....she wont say it,but she does, i can tell. fuckin a...figures. yet she always tells me how hes a dickhead basically. i try to be supportive and let her do what she wants, because i want her to be happy, but i cant help but be mad when she constantly talks about him, cause she still likes him, oh well you dont get over a year relationship in a month :(.

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

eh im done fortonight, im not motivated to write for some reason.

a great speech by a canadian,yes a canadian...please please read it all

2006-11-15T22:37:10Z

There is a speech By Gordon Sinclair, a Canadian broad caster, that he wrote shortly after the United States pulled out of Vietnam. He wrote it because he was upset with the way other countries were verbally bashing America for it's involvement in the war, especially those that we had helped in the past.

To say that this speech made an impact would be an unforgivable understatement. America as a whole embraced it. The speech was printed in newspapers and played several times daily on the radio and television for weeks. It was popular because it said exactly what America needed to hear at the time.

The speech became popular again shortly after 9/11. It was as relevant then as it was those many years ago after Vietnam. It is relevant even today as the Iraq war drags on.

Here is that speech. All I ask is that you read it, I ask you to do this because I think this is exactly what America needs to hear again in these difficult times.

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"This Canadian thinks it is time to speak up for the Americans as the most generous and possibly the least appreciated people on all the earth.

Germany, Japan and, to a lesser extent, Britain and Italy were lifted out of the debris of war by the Americans who poured in billions of dollars and forgave other billions in debts. None of these countries is today paying even the interest on its remaining debts to the United States.

When France was in danger of collapsing in 1956, it was the Americans who propped it up, and their reward was to be insulted and swindled on the streets of Paris. I was there. I saw it.

When earthquakes hit distant cities, it is the United States that hurries in to help. This spring, 59 American communities were
flattened by tornadoes. Nobody helped.

The Marshall Plan and the Truman Policy pumped billions of dollars into discouraged countries. Now newspapers in those countries are writing
about the decadent, war mongering Americans.

I'd like to see just one of those countries that is gloating over the erosion of the United States dollar build its own airplane. Does any other country in the world have a plane to equal the Boeing Jumbo Jet, the Lockheed Tri-Star, or the Douglas DC10? If so, why don't they fly
them? Why do all the International lines except Russia fly American Planes? Why does no other land on earth even consider putting a man or woman on the moon?

You talk about Japanese technocracy, and you get radios. You talk about German technocracy, and you get automobiles. You talk about American technocracy, and you find men on the moon-not once, but several times-and safely home again.

You talk about scandals, and the Americans put theirs right in the store window for everybody to look at. Even their draft-dodgers are not pursued and hounded. They are here on our streets, and most of them, unless they are breaking Canadian laws, are getting American dollars from ma and pa at home to spend here.

When the railways of France, Germany and India were breaking down through age, it was the Americans who rebuilt them. When the Pennsylvania Railroad and the New York Central went broke, nobody loaned them an old caboose. Both are still broke. I can name you 5000 times when the Americans raced to the help of other people in trouble. Can you name me even one time when someone else raced to the Americans in trouble? I don't think there was outside help even during the San Francisco earthquake.

Our neighbors have faced it alone, and I'm one Canadian who is damned tired of hearing them get kicked around. They will come out of this thing with their flag high. And when they do, they are entitled to thumb their nose at the lands that are gloating over their present troubles. I hope Canada is not one of those."

Stand proud, America!

still not too much time

2006-11-14T03:53:53Z

but enough to write a short thing real quick.

yesterday i was in a shitty mood. god it was rediculous. i must have flipped shit on like 5 people. for absolutley no reason, well not no reason, but reasons i would have let go if i was thinking clearly, which i wasnt. fucking a. i have no idea why i was in such a shitty mood, and it kinda carried over to today but i like hid it better today. as far as everyone knows its a normal day.

wednesday brings a field trip to mount holly for me. i have to go in early and wear like a suit jawn, no problem. girls have it so much harder. all i have to do is wear pants shirt tie jacket, presto, im done. girls have to like go shopping and all that shit, i have everything already. lucky me.

Speaking of getting dressed up, I heard taht someone already asked someone to winter twilight, anyone know when that is by the way? isnt it in like fuckingjanuary? kinda rediculous if you ask me, whatever.

ok so there is this girl...I havent even known her too long, yet iunno, it seems like maybe i like her? but i dont want to because, well im not surewhy honestly. who knows? like its not even a "god i want to go get with her, shes hot" type thing. I mean yea shes gorgeous, but its not about that here, really. she's pretty amazing for the amount of time i've known her. but, fuck, it prolly wont work out...why? only God knows. I sure as hell dont.

enough of that.

i really want to drive, that way i could do what i wanted, like if i wanted wawa, boom im goin. etc. there is more too this but i just dont have time to get into it, so later it is.

ill get a good entry later

fucking a

2006-11-13T01:27:41Z

I really need to write in this right now, but i dont have fucking time, ugh stress and drama blow more cock than some typical twp. girl. and my back hurts like hell, i have a headache, i ache all over, ive hiked like 24-30 miles in the past 3 days, i prolly will get this up tomorrow, hopefully. peace.

blah?

2006-11-04T05:33:27Z

hokay soiunno....tonight i went to the football game. they lost. ian showed up with like 5 minutes left, thats when they started losing, stupid ian. he was drunk i think....he had his shirt off and shit and was iunno just acted drunk...or like a dumbass. or both. i saw christine and brittany walking there. brittany seems pretty wonderful. oh well, w/e. so yea that "fumble" wasnt a fumble. he didnt have posession, get both feet down, and make a football move. unless making a football move is getting knocked the fuck out by the safety...that was a joke, however stupid it might have been.

In 9 hours ill be playing paintball. well not really, in 9 hours ill be dicking around with paul, kyle, and maybe kyle. then in 10 hours or so ill be playing. i still have to pack my bag and jawn. im excited i havent played since august?ish iunno. I'm gonna be so beat tomorrow when i get up, ill need like a pot of coffee to get up, even though i hatteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee coffee. did i meantion hate? maybe ill get to go to wawa for some peach tea jawn. its supposed to be like 40* tomorrow when i go, iunno if thats cold or not, is it? god i hate it when my stupid fucking keyboard decides not to work. Yea but anyway it should.....ugh dude im really honestly beat as hell, so im goin to bed, ill finish shit tomorrow

3 day weekend

2006-10-09T04:03:11Z

woah...2 entries in 1 month? whats up with that :).ahaha. yea this was a 3day weekend....it was ok at best so far. Friday night i was supposed to go to eastern state penatentary....then creamy acres, then we decided we would go saturday....when i say we of course i mean emily and danielle decided and told me. lol. anywho, my mom got in an accident thursday on her way to work, so she had to work friday. shes fine, the front windshield got fucked up though. and my dad was in the middle of nowhere in ark-freakin-ansas. Brian worked....leaving me with no ride, so i sat and played hastings/chlled on the computer....basically did nothing all night....oh yes tons of fun :(. Saturday i watched college football during the day then went to creamy acres with emily, danielle, and this kid mike...it sucked, it isnt scary there at all. the scariest thing i saw there was nick shumacher's face. haha. today....i sat and watched football, like i do every sunday during football season, i miss paintball, i dont play, starting 5 weeks ago for football, before that cause i didnt have a tank and a loader and i didnt have the money to buy one, and i just didnt have time. Now i have the money, just not the means to play, even though im getting a D2 soon. its cute :).lol. but yea, great game today i was sweatin bullets during wehn the flag got thrown for pass interference on michael lewis. tomorrow, who knows what ill do, then tuesday is back to school, i dont miss it, i get annoyed in school a lot, from stupid people in my classes and not in my classes. I can honestly say i hate living in NJ...yea i know a lot of people say this, but i always ask them why, there answer is something stupid like "oh iunno i just do" or "theres nothing to do here"...and my response is always "you're an idiot/dumbass/moron/whatever" or "drive 20 minutes to philly then," respectivley. but i hate it for a different reason, a reason 99% of our school doesnt understand, i hate living in a fucking liberal state, i hate how kids walk around with anti-war, anti-bush, etc shirts and yet the best reason why they know that they hate bush is, "he looks stupid", "he cant pronounce nuclear", or "hes from texas". god fucking retarded kids i swear, but i know the real reason they hate bush, because their parents have fed them dumbass liberal views from birth and thats all they know. sure now some people are gonna say "well you were just fed dumbass conservative views from birth and thats all you know," yet i have one parent who is conservative, one who is moderate who leans heavily toward the left. so one of each basically. also, the anti-war shirts...there has been war since the beginning of time, man has always fought, wearing a tshirt that says war and has a red circle with a line through it does not, and will not, stop that...at all.

apparently, north korea launched a nuclear weapon for testing purposes, so confirmed by the south. my friend said "the draft is coming" and "oh no another war"...he's one of those kids that i talked about above...without the shirts, just the ideals. whatever. there wont be a draft, unless things get extreme. and there wont be awar unless NK invades SK or launches a nuke or inter-continential missle at us, SK, Japan, China, or other ally in the area. Because we wont launch one at them. and if NK does launch one, at us anyway, we can and will blast it out of the air somewhere in the Pacific ocean. Then we will go to war, i dont see it happening soon though.

I love how people tell other people how to run their lives...like seriously people SHUT THE FUCK UP. If I(or any person) wants to do something,start a business, go to school, skip work, quit, get a job, drink,smoke, break up, hook up, etc etc etc. thats their decision, they can deal with the consequences. seriously.

bah im done for tonight, not in the mood for it.

wow i dont read do i

2006-10-05T01:46:53Z

I honestly just read over my last entry....i cant understand half the shit im saying...like seriously its bad. oh well, like i said this stuff isn't for others to care about, more for me to get my thoughts out, but if people read it...so be it. Nothing really new happened so far. I realized walking home from school today that i cant wait till im 17 and can drive, so i wont have to fucking walk home when everyone is working...yes i want to be 17 regardless of what i said in mmy last entry. oh well shit happens right? lots of shit is happening this year i think, like iunno just lots of shit. hopefully this friday im going to eastern state penatentary even though it sucks there, i got invited from emily....and i cant just like say no im not going can i? haha. nahhhh we're cool, shes pretty amazing, oh well. ill go i suppose, even though this "vampire" kid is going as she describes him, hes a goth lolol....yet apparently he is "the sweetest kid ever", it seems sometimes like she just wants to call me an asshole/jerk/dickhead/etc. but wont w/e. I JUST HAD A GREAT IDEA!!!!!!!!! CALLING ALL GIRLS WHO DO/HAVE USED NAIR!!!! would i be able to use that on my face without dieing or burning or itching terribly? seriously i need to know.... k thats enough for tonight, i dont feel like writing for some reason.

yea so what, i only write once a month...

2006-09-27T21:34:42Z

ugh im in such a...."blah" mood. Deffinitley not in a good mood, but not in a terrible mood, there are deffinitley people in worse moods than me...why do people come to me for me to listen to their problems all the time? i dont really mind it i guess, sometimes i want to hear about it, but even when i dont people tell me about it, they do. I don't know why im in a bad mood, nothing bad has happened...although i havent gone out since like...before school started, that could be it, good thing i quit bluee yes. i didnt mind working there really, i just need a life too, and life is hectic kinda, and im starting an online course with penn foster...parents are on my case to get my grades up. I'm only in HS for not even 2 more years...ill miss my friends and ill miss HS. I dont want to go as far as saying im scared of whats ahead, cuase its not quite being scared, its just like.....i dont know whats gonna happen. What if i pick a bad major, or their are no jobs in business management if thats what i do , or my business fails if i do entrepreneurship...my financial management teacher, mrs. vavricka, today said it is a critical point in our lives....like seriously, all i need is one fuck up and guess what? my life is like done, iunno bout anyone else, but my idea of a good job is not working at wawa for the rest of my life....on a side note: http://www.richstevens.com/flash/iq.swf take that jawn, i got a 10 on it. let me know what you get....back on topic. yea so iunno though one fuck up and my life could be like over....thats some scary shit.yea i only write in this once a month, an that would mean this is my 3rd entry. most people update this shit frequently. i dont think anyone cares what happens day-to-day. hell, i doubt they care about good things either, they only wanna hear about bad stuff because it'll make them feel better about themselves, thats how 99% of people are i think, i like to think im not one of them, but who knows maybe i am. i like to think im a good listener atleast, but who knows. I met this girl recently. im not gonna lie, shes pretty amazing, shes nice and shes pretty and iunno all that jazz, she seems really cool and ish, i guess id like to get to know her better, but recently she got all screwed up, this dick made a dick move, and he fucked up. and again, and again and again, etc. i dont get relationships, or girls. how could someone get over like a yearish relationship in like a week, i think thats rediculous. another thing i dont get is cheaters...why?whatever. blahh...Someone made me realize something today though, we'll call her Bob here, yes i said we'll call HER, BOB. so what. anywho, i realized that im fucking lucky my mom and dad are still married, I would hate it if i could only see one of them at a time, i feel bad for all people who's parents are divorced. of course its sympathy though, not empathy since i dont know what its like. Also, i think this year i'm gonna start doing work in school. I'm tired of people telling me "i hate you cause you do nothing and yet you get good grades" and that shit...yet what they dont realize is that they get better grades than me because they work hard as hell, its much better to be hardworking and dumb, than smart and lazy, I've learned that in the past couple of years, some prime examples, me and matty b. its rediculous, not to brag but i think im smart, and i get ok grades, but there are people who work hard all the time, and they get better, i guess thats fair, you get out what you put in. matty b is prolly one of the smartest kids that iknow, but he takes laziness to the next fucking level. he is rediculous. oh well shit happens i suppose...

yea i decided to start a new paragraph,even though above could be like 4. oh well. i read this list here: http://www.humanevents.com/article.php?id=7591 of the 10 most harmful books of the 19th adn 20th century, and i can honestly say that i want to read 4 of the 10...anyone who knows me knows im about as right winged as is possible, atleast for our age. why do i want to read them then? i want to know what the fuck was going through marx's, hitler's, and mao's minds when they made their ideals...granted marx never said anything about turing communism into what hitler made it but whatever, he was still a fucking moron. Oh the books i want to read are the Communist manifesto, mein kampf(my struggles for whoever doesnt know), Das kapital(the capital also for those who dont speak german), and quotations from chariman mao(ze dung for the morons). anywho, i wont though cause i dont want the fbi/cia to target me for reading them and then have my whole life watched because of the patriot act(which i 100% agree with by the way), so i doubt i will. yea that list was written by republicans, and i agree with them completley, some liberals would disagree with some of them im sure(fucking morons).

woah, yea nother new one. its ashame TO didnt suceed in his most recent fuck up. way to go dumbass.

so im still unsure about my girl situation...theres a few possiblities, it seems like one or 2 are leaving or coming into the picture almost weekly. some seem amazing, some are ok, some i didnt know what the fucki was thinking. who the fuck knows dude.

Blah

2006-08-01T05:07:47Z

Also, i dont care about my grammar, spelling,correctness politically, factually, or otherwise here. lastly, i'll prolly jump from idea to idea so if you dont understand it, its not just you so dont worry about it. but this is how everthing comes out of my head

Ok here we go:

So basically im getting yelled at for everything in my life these days. Mostly girls do the yelling...so it got me thinking...is it possible for 99% of the girls i know to be pms'ing at the exact same time? in the past 2 days ive been yelled at by almost all the girls i know more than one time, for rediculous things. Ill give some examples or something.

Ok, fast forward to dinner time, it was like 6 or so. my dad wasnt home from work yet.w/e thats normal, hes normally home 6:30-7. so we are eating and my mom made these potatoes in a cup or something with dinner(god i cant even remember what i had for dinner though). anyway, she says "we didnt have any of the cheddar ones left(my and my sisters favorites) I want you to try the sour cream and onion though", so i say to myself fine, idont care that we dont have potato in a cup(i am not too much of a fan of them to begin with). so my sister says to me "wanna split one adam?(she doesnt like them too much either, i hate anything sour cream and onion though)" i said to her "no thanks, i dont want any"
"mom wants us to try them"
"i dont want any"
"mom said we have to eat them"
"are you my mother?"
my mom freaks out at this point...
"ADAM EVERYTHING SHE HAS SAIDTO YOU IS CONVERSATIONAL AND YOU JUST SNAP AT HER(keep in mind i was completely calm during this entire thing, both of them, sam[my sis] wasnt)
"mom, how is telling me 3 times that i have to eat potatoes that i dont want conversational?"
we havent talked since dinner.

I hate people who think that some sports arent sports, i.e. paintball. what makes it not a sport? www.dictionary.com defines a sport as:

sport Pronunciation Key (spôrt, sprt)
n.

1.
1. Physical activity that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often engaged in competitively.
2. A particular form of this activity.
2. An activity involving physical exertion and skill that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often undertaken competitively.
3. An active pastime; recreation.
4.
1. Mockery; jest: He made sport of his own looks.
2. An object of mockery, jest, or play: treated our interests as sport.
3. A joking mood or attitude: She made the remark in sport.
5.
1. One known for the manner of one's acceptance of rules, especially of a game, or of a difficult situation: a poor sport.
2. Informal. One who accepts rules or difficult situations well.
3. Informal. A pleasant companion: was a real sport during the trip.
6. Informal.
1. A person who lives a jolly, extravagant life.
2. A gambler at sporting events.
7. Biology. An organism that shows a marked change from the normal type or parent stock, typically as a result of mutation.
8. Maine. See summercater. See Regional Note at summercater.
9. Obsolete. Amorous dalliance; lovemaking.

Fisrt of all...wtf is up with #9...sport=lovemaking? so then maybe oral sex should be in the olympics, I'm willing to be a person performed on for the womens individual oral medley...hell forget the individual, ill do the womens oral relay too.

second, look at 1. sub-entry 1...dont wanna look up? ill show it to you again:

1. Physical activity that is governed by a set of rules or customs and often engaged in competitively.

ok last time i checked running, trying not to get shot, with teamwork is physical activity. and for the second part. http://www.pspevents.com/uploads/PSP2006RulesXBallDivRev2.pdf read that and then stfu, k thanks. so paintball is a sport.

I wonder when liberals will finally realize all their ideals are wrong?